Meaningless

So I haven't blogged in forever. That's because I'm lazy. And I guess I have to be in a "mood" to do it.

I've hit a meaningless stream today. (thats what I call it when this world feels futile and I get depressed)

I usually dodge the depression fairly well, but I finished a video game today. When I finish books, video games, see the last episode of a show, or watch the end of a movie I can't dodge the depression. I look at the happy endings and say "What now?" I look at the tragedies and say "That's it?" And I look at the incomplete stories and say "That's the end?"

It doesn't help that I tried and failed to apply to a collage today. Because when I look in the future I don't see long happy life, I see meaningless labor until I die or the world ends and then an age comes where it doesn't matter what I did for a career. The entire cycle of working for money to use it to live seems trivial.

But it did remind me of something,

Ecclesiastes 3:9-14

⁹What does the worker gain from his toil? ¹⁰I have seen the burden God has laid on men. ¹¹He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. ¹²I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. ¹³That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. ¹⁴I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

Today I felt that eternity. I long for the day of restoration.