"Beutiful" 20 Knot day

Today was a fun day on the boat. We logged in a 10 hour day, it was rough, raining, and windy (My definition of rough by the way is when you can’t see anything but the aerials of another boat when you are at the crest of the wave and they are in the trough). A long day or a rough day, are stressful enough by themselves. When combined they create an exhausting day.

It was great to see how far I’ve come in my fishing though. In my second year we were out on a day not as bad as this one, I was rather vocal about how we should be at home waiting the storm out. The day similar to this in year three I had a bad attitude, but I didn’t vocalize my thoughts. Year six (this year) its just another day, I don’t complain, I kept a positive attitude, and when the traps fell off the washboard I put them back on and kept going. It’s shown me how far I’ve come in the last five years.

I’m still tired, I guess that hasn’t changed. What’s to be expected though, even dad was exhausted after today and he’s been doing it longer than I’ve been alive. I’m hoping tomorrow will either be nicer, or will be so bad that we can’t leave the harbour.

I saw the future, but I couldn't see what was in it.

I’ve been doing some thinking lately. Most of it is either incoherent or completely fictional so I won’t mention the bulk of it. But what I’m zeroing in on it the thoughts about what to do for the rest of my life. I need to figure out what I want to do, and fast, but I’m finding it difficult to decide what I want to do. I feel like there are so many options, and I have too little time to review them.

I don’t know if anyone at the college noticed or not, but I’m not really a decisive person. I have a hard time choosing between things, even when they appear to be exact opposites. It’s part of why many of my decisions are made slowly, and why I’m rather stubborn about reviewing the options again when a new one comes up.

This will be one of the bigger decisions of my life, and I want to be sure that I get it right. At the same time I want to get my decision over with quickly. I also want some meat, and there doesn’t appear to be any in this house. Oops, one of the of the bulk ones escaped. Maybe it’s time for a nap, or another episode of the X files, or I could look for meat, it is suppertime.